Shadows of Awareness: Honor Your Process

Michele Nappi –

There are times when we feel tormented by our own minds; our shadow side, if you will. Some have called this our inner demons. Sometimes the only thing we can do is wait it out. Meanwhile, we can do the best we can do to take well care of ourselves so that we do less damage to ourselves and others. Even saying this may feel scary to some.

The shadow side simply means the unconscious self and or the belief in parts of ourselves that we don’t want to face.

Sometimes are worst fears do come true. How are we prepared to handle them when they come about?

We may call this ascension. Expansion. Becoming. Being. Presence.

What ever we choose to call it, we can muster the courage and strength to face these inner demons, we can realize, release, and find relief.

How does anything grow? Is flora and fauna aware of their expansion and growth? What would it look like? Do we imagine our physical body growing or does it just happen? As we grow physically we suffer aches and pains of stretching and rending our bodies.

What does this look like as emotional, mental, and spiritual growth?

Some use growth charts to measure the physical body. What chart do we use to measure our emotional achievements? We are graded on our mental/intellectual achievements as we take tests, as we do a job.

How do we test our emotional strengths? Our inner heart? Our soul? Is this the suffering and pain we most fear to challenge?

We know ourselves where we want to know ourselves emotionally. What do we do with the energy that gets accumulated as we focus on not knowing the parts of us we fear the most?

Our patterns show. Other may see our patterns much more clearly than we can. They are not as emotionally connected to them as we are. Knowing this may cause us to feel triggered. Triggered deeper into our own psyche.

Awareness allows us an opportunity. Discipline, intelligence, and sensitivity allows surrender to the beast within.

During the ascension process changes are occuring on all evels of your being. Ascension is a completely natural universal evolutionary process. As one shifts in vibrational frequency and as their awareness expands, symptoms are experienced on the physical, mental, emotional and spiritual level.

Ascension symptoms are not a direct result of the higher energies of light, but rather they are a result of holding onto limitations and resistance in the mind and body. We are literally constricting in fear of expansion, even though we have chosen this process. This is the way of the warrior!

Reiki Attunements: My experiences. Seeing aura around husband and dog as they entered house.

Knowing my daughers thought and hearing them as if said aloud about wanting a fudgsicle before dinner.

Instantaneous revelations: Born with expanded sensitivities. Seeing hearing feeling knowing, etc. spirit. Ex.

During meditation: As we release our hold on our senses and focus on our breathing, we expand our consciousness. Like sleeping and dreaming, meditation can bring us that which we believed to be hidden. We can have a virtual reality in this state of mind. Visit with the deceased, act out a fantasy, realize a goal, received information that seems to be miraculous. (What do miracles, humor, and tragedy have in common? They are all unexpected.)

Visitations: Experiencing the unexperienced. Having visions. An expanded view of reality. Knowing things that others seem to be afraid to hear about. Being afraid to talk about our experiences. Not feeling like you want to conform any longer. Feeling like a rebel. What does this bring up for you? For others?

What are some of this ascension symptoms;

Becoming more sensitive. Seeming more emotional. Crying. Laughing hysterically. Anger. Retreating. Wanting to move. Change jobs, partners, places, friends, etc. Things just don’t seem the same any longer.

Mental thoughts that aren’t attached to anything in particular that is going on. They seem to hang on. They have arisen to heal.

Flu symptoms. Exhaustion.

Feeling of elation.

Reading everything you can get your hands on.

Finding groups of like minded individuals.

Connecting deeper with nature.

Feeling sorry for oneself. Grieving. What are the cycles of grief?


Taking the proverbial one step forward, two steps back to experience the new and reconnect with the old, safety measures.

As you expand you feel the symptoms. You touch the sky and want the earth. You feel spiritual and grieve the physical.

Why does anyone want to go through this?

It may be time to take a break.

When we expand we expand. The symptoms are more about the individual and not all the same.

These are out patterns of behavior showing up to be released. Humans have been taught to hang on to all that we are out of fear. Just in general and to please others. To fit in.

As we realize something within ourselves that we would like to release to find relief we may turn to repetitive things to keep our minds occupied like chopping wood, knitting, cooking from scratch, fishing; casting, creating art, and so forth. These help us feel comforted.

We can ask the Universe any question we would like to and allow space for the answer to come to us in any way that it can.

We can take time off; tell yourself you are taking the next few minutes or longer to give yourself a break.

Exercise; walk, swim, dance, sing, stretch, hydrate, eat well & healthy, etc.

We find ways to have a clear and simple mind.

Any form of therapy you choose is a form of expansion. As we realize, release, to find relief we lighten our load as we call it, we release denser frequency of vibration; material.