Our Ugliness

Michele Nappi – Mystic Medium

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 I talk about this often to express it for people. When we are not able for what ever reason, to speak our truth the energy keeps being ‘depressed, oppressed, repressed’ causing an overload of toxic sludge in our bodies that comes out ‘sideways’ in various unhealthy forms. We all do it to one degree or another.

 We all do it. I know that. I see that. I realize that. Yet, we all do it and have always out of sentimentality and familial, ancestral taught-thoughts until we have experienced it enough and decide not to do it. All about choice and courage, I believe.

I see it daily in myself and others.

“We human beings are experts at creating problems for ourselves. Unless we have deep wisdom to guide us, we make the same mistakes over and over again, perpetuating our confusion. Because our unconscious habits take us around in circles, this endless routine is known as the “wheel of suffering.” – Pema Chodron

Since we know – it must be a choice.

As we become conscious we have one foot there and one foot in the unconscious as this is habitual way of ‘knowing’ and feels ‘safe in it’s comfort’ even though it may not be.

When we choose to follow our truth it is much more peaceful than not. We can ‘know’ this and yet, at times we stay in touch with the ‘old’ frequency while we swing back and forth (reminds me of Tarzan) from one frequency to the other as we get used to the difference – choosing frequency of vibration. It can take what we humans call a ‘long’ time and yet, when we ‘get it’ it is there and has been all along – or we wouldn’t be about to ‘get it’ at all.

Call it what you ‘will’; the energy. It is what we are. It is the all of everything. It is there for you in the most loving way possible; all – knowing presence.

This morning I woke up in a vision. It was all in color. There was a beautiful bed, white linen sheets, ornate metal head and foot boards. I think there was a sliding glass door with a white sheer curtain. This door was open because I ‘see’ the curtain billowing in the breeze. There was a snake on the bed and it slithered off the bed. It hides under the metal heating panel that is just above the floor. Not sure what to do with this.

Our ugliness is so beautiful!

http://www.shamanicjourney.com/snake-power-animal-symbol-of-death-rebirth-eternity-mysteries-of-life-psychic-energy?hc_location=ufi

 Thinking this is ‘real’ life and yet, perhaps a shamanic vision although the snake is hiding or going back into warmth.  It was near an ocean and I could hear the waves. I’ve been thinking about ‘air’ lately and the direction of East; paradigm of the mind.

 I’ve also been thinking about ‘respect’ and transformation. I’ve felt stuck in ego lately and I really do not like it at all. I can feel it so much more now that my energy is finer. It feels like a punch in the gut. When people talk to me I can feel their energy much more and sometimes it literally smells like sewage. I know not to make it a focus and yet, it takes some ‘doing’ to release it. I get frustrated with myself and others – which is ego. We are all where we are at through choices we continue to make.

 I am much more drawn to spiritual soul consciousness energy and feel that that is where my energy is. I am exploring this more now.

I keep hearing, “Let it go. Let it all go.”

 When we choose to follow our truth it is much more peaceful than not. We can ‘know’ this and yet, at times we stay in touch with the ‘old’ frequency while we swing back and forth (reminds me of Tarzan) from one frequency to the other as we get used to the difference – choosing frequency of vibration. It can take what we humans  call a ‘long’ time and yet, when we ‘get it’ it is there and has been all along – or we wouldn’t be about to ‘get it’ at all.

The only reason things fall apart is to release our clinging grip, so that we can catch our spiritual breath. ~ Michele Nappi – Mystic Medium